Aiden's Point of View

Wyatt and I are already at school. I was the first one of us to wake up this morning. I thought I would forget what happened last night because of the drunkenness but that was just my imagination. Everything that happened to us last night is clearer than the water I'm drinking today. I don't know if Wyatt remembers because ever since he woke up he looked fine and didn't think about anything. Can he really not remember that something happened to us last night? He didn't look drunk when something happened, in fact I was the one who looked drunk out of the two of us.

Sigh, lessons from the lectures will enter my mind if what happened last night is what I always think about but I can't help it. I want to ask Wyatt if he remembers anything to be sure but I'm shy. What if he says he remembers something? And what will I say?

We only have school until noon today because we only have two subjects. I left the room with Hans, while Wyatt, Jacob and Yuan were walking ahead of us.

Hans said they talked about going to the condo again to drink, and they also told Wyatt about it. Wyatt said he'll just follow because he has somewhere else to go. When I asked Hans where Wyatt was going, his answer was, "Maybe with Vanessa? You know, he's making a move with Vanessa." Then, he laughed.

I don't know but it felt like something pinched my chest when I heard Hans' answer. But instead of thinking about it, I just ignored it. It will only hurt me if I think about it even more.

I have accepted that I like Wyatt but I have no intention of telling him. If my feelings are the only thing that can destroy our friendship, then nevermind. I am ready to hide my feelings for our friendship. I'm also ready to be hurt secretly so that he doesn't know or notice my feelings for him. I know that my feelings for him will also fade. It will also disappear and fade, I'll just wait for that day until I don't realize it anymore.

Also, I don't want him to become like me. Many people like Wyatt, he is well known throughout the school so what will happen if he turns out to be like me? What will other people say to him if that happens?

I also don't want to tell him what I realized about myself. I don't want him to stay away from me like I'm some kind of contagious virus. I don't want his heart to go away from me and think that he had a friend for several years who wasn't straight.

I'm still not sure what I really am. I only felt this with Wyatt for the first time so I can't say I'm gay yet. I act modestly, I look like a woman but I'm not as soft as other gays I see. The type that twitches its ass every time it walks. But I also can't say that I'm bisexual because I've never been attracted to any woman. Danica is beautiful but... I don't know, she's beautiful but that's all I can think of.

I'm back at the condo. I showered before cleaning the house. While I was cleaning the room, I remembered what happened there last night. My blood immediately rose to my face causing it to heat up. I bit my bottom lip and shook my head, trying to get my mind off what happened last night.

"Damn it," I whispered to myself.

Maybe nothing like that will happen again, right? Shit. Erase! I don't want to think anymore.

I just played a song while cleaning so I wouldn't think about anything else. I might just go crazy if I continue thinking about anything. I also left the room after cleaning it.

DING! DONG!

I immediately let go of the broom and opened the door.

I smiled, "Welcome."

I opened the door widely and let in the three eggs. Wyatt wasn't with them, maybe he really went somewhere. The three sat on the couch and placed the bottles of wine and snacks on the table.

"I've been calling Wyatt for a while but he's not answering the call," Hans said while looking at his phone.

"Maybe he's busy with Vanessa," Jacob replied with a laugh.

"Didn't Wyatt call or text you, Aiden?" Yuan asked me.

I sat next to Jacob then shook my head, "No. Why?"

"We haven't been able to contact him for a while. We had intended to come here together, but he didn't answer our calls, so we went ahead because you might get bored waiting," Yuan answered.

"It only happened today, so I'm a little nervous because he didn't answer," Hans added.

I licked my lips before I stood up, "I'll call his grandfather, I'll ask if Wyatt is at their house."

I left the living area and went into the bedroom to call Wyatt's grandfather. After a few rings, he answered my call.

"Aiden, why?" He started.

"Uhm, grandpa, is Wyatt there?" I asked, "We have plans today but he is not answering my calls."

Actually, it was Hans' call he didn't answer.

"Hmm... He's not here, he left a while ago after he finished taking a shower. I didn't ask where he was going," answered grandpa. "Try to call him again, maybe that one's phone is on silent again."

"Okay, thank you very much. Good night, grandpa."

"Good night, Aiden."

And the phone call ended.

I left the room and sat next to Jacob again. I sighed then shook my head, "Wyatt isn't there. He said he left after he finished taking a shower."

"Let's leave that one alone! Vanessa might be with him so he doesn't want to be disturbed," Jacob said and started to open the alcohol they bought.

Wyatt, where are you?

After a few minutes of drinking I couldn't take it anymore. I stood up and said that I was just going to the comfort room but the truth was I was going there to call Wyatt. A few minutes have passed but he still isn't here. What if something bad happened to him? Haa.

He didn't answer my first call so I tried to call him again. He only answered the phone on the third ring. Thank God!

"Oh... Aiden? Whassup, man?" He was panting. You'd think he was running because of his voice.

"A-Are you doing something? We've been waiting for you for a while—" I was cut off when I suddenly heard someone speak and it was a woman's voice.

"Ugh~ Wyatt, faster~"

What the...

I immediately covered my mouth while my phone remained on my ear. I was stunned and didn't know what to do. What am I listening to? Are they... Doing it?

Wyatt giggled, "Hey, you don't want others to hear you, right? Shut it for a moment, I'm on a phone call right now with my best friend. Right, Aiden?" He chuckled, "Did you hear her? Man, it's just our secret, okay?"

When a tear fell from my eye, I immediately hung up. My chest suddenly tightened and I felt like I was having trouble breathing. I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down. I washed my face to cover the tears that kept coming, hoping that if I mixed them with water they would stop.

What the fuck? They're really doing that thing. My mind was blank as the voice of the woman who moaned earlier in the call played over and over in my head.

I spent another thirty minutes inside until I completely calmed down. When I came out of the bathroom, they were all looking at me.

"Why?" I asked.

"Why did you take so long in CR? We thought something had happened," said Yuan.

I noticed Hans furrowed his brow, "Did you cry?" He stood up and came to me.

I shook my head and looked away, "No." I answered.

"Liar," he grabbed my face and forced it to face him. "Why are you crying? Do you want us to leave but you just can't say it? It's okay, we'll leave when you say so."

I shook my head, "No. I didn't cry and it's okay that you're here."

"Are you sure?" he asked.

I nodded, "Uh-hmm."

Hans caressed my cheek with care. When I looked at his eyes, I could see his concern for me. Hans could be an asshole and could be a good friend too. Should I offer a friendship with him?

I was about to speak when the door of my condo suddenly opened. Wyatt appeared and he looked surprised when he saw Hans and me. I thought he would grab Hans' hand to make him go away from me but he didn't do it. He was stunned for a moment but when he recovered, he immediately went to Jacob and sat down beside him.

Did he ignore me? Nevermind, that's even better because I don't know what to say to him either.

I smiled at Hans, "I'm okay. Let's go back there and drink."

He nodded and we both went back to the table. Jacob complained to Wyatt for the reason that he arrived too late. I was just quietly watching TV while they were throwing jokes with each other. I will just drink when it's my turn and watch TV again.

Earlier I wanted to ask Wyatt if he remembered what happened last night, but after the call happened I changed my mind. Maybe it's better to just bury it in oblivion after all it was just a mistake. What happened to us last night was just brought on by the alcohol we drank. But if I knew Wyatt was so drunk that he wouldn't remember it until the next morning, I would have stopped myself that night. I wouldn't have let the heat take me.

It was 12 AM when we finished drinking. The three said they were leaving, I turned to Wyatt when I noticed that he would follow the three going out of the condo.

"Are you going home too?" I asked.

He turned to me and smiled, "Yes. I can still drive so I'll go home."

"Ahh..." I nodded and smiled as well, "Alright. Be careful."

Wyatt also left the condo. They walked away and were a few steps away from the elevator. I was just looking behind them. I couldn't help but feel sad as I looked at Wyatt's back. I can still hear the woman's voice. Could that be Vanessa?

I thought they were about to leave when suddenly Hans ran back. He grabbed me with a tight hug that surprised me. Is he drunk?

"Good night, Aiden! See you tomorrow~" he said while still hugging me.

I giggled, "Yeah, yeah. Go now."

"Don't cry again, hmm?" He tapped my head and kissed it which surprised me.

My eyes widened and I couldn't complain. What the heck? I'm too stunned to speak, man!

"Let's go," Wyatt suddenly appeared and pulled Hans away from me.

Hans might be extremely drunk. Dang.