Aiden's Point of View

DING DONG! DING DONG!

I woke up as soon as I heard the sound of the doorbell. I immediately ran out of my bedroom to open the door for the person who was ringing the doorbell. My heart is pounding like crazy. I hope the one ringing the doorbell was Wyatt. I missed him. I missed him so fucking much. Please, make it him. I know he can't resist me. I know he can't leave me. I know he still has feelings for me.

Yeah, that's all I thought about but they were all gone when I finally opened the door. Wyatt isn't there. It was Regie who rang the doorbell. What the heck? What am I hoping for? I already knew that what I am thinking is all just bullshit, that it will never happen. He said that he doesn't love me anymore and that the one he loves is Agleen and not me. So, what... What exactly am I hoping for? Damn it.

All the excitement I felt a while ago went away. I smiled at Regie and let him in. I told him to sit down on the couch first and I will just wash my face. I sighed when I saw my reflection in the mirror. I felt ashamed all of a sudden. I look miserable. My hair is a mess and my eyes are swollen. I shouldn't just wash my face, I need to take a bath.

After 30 minutes, I left the bathroom and ran to my room. I saw Regie's eyes following me when I ran, that's embarrassing. I'm just wearing a robe, that's why I ran. After a few minutes, I left the room and sat next to Regie.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

I smiled, "Yeah. Um, so… Do you need anything?”

He shook his head, "I just came here to accompany you. I don't know what happened between Wyatt and you but I hope you will make up, you're best friends after all."

No. We're not just best friends, Regie. We were lovers not until Agleen showed up. I hope she doesn't exist in the first place. If she doesn't, there's no way we would break up.

Of course, I didn't say that. I just smiled, bowed my head and played with my fingers. I want to cry again, damn it.

All I could do last night was to cry. My eyes hurt and so does my heart. I don't want to cry and remember all that anymore. Should I bump my head on a hard object until I can't remember Wyatt and all the pain he caused me ever again?

Regie held my hand. It startled me. "I brought fruits, do you want me to peel you an apple?" he asked.

I looked at him. I know he had feelings for me but I don't know if he still has. Is he doing this for me out of pity? Ha...

"Thank you," I said.

He just smiled and messed up my hair before he stood up and went to the kitchen. I was just watching him while he was peeling the apple until he finished. He served the apple on the table before he sat next to me.

"Why did you fight, Aiden?" he asked as he kept his eyes on the TV.

"It's nothing, just... a small matter," I answered, then took an apple that he was dividing into small pieces.

"You can tell me everything when you're ready, I won't force you," he responded.

I nodded, "Thank you, Regie."

"You don't need to thank me anymore," he replied. "You are not new to me, we have known each other for a long time."

"Even so..." I bowed. "I'm still grateful that I still have someone I can count on."

He giggled, "Can I stay over tonight?"

I looked at him, "Why? I mean, don't you want to stay in your house?"

He pouted, "I want to join you here. Look at your eyes," he said and touched my eyelid. "It's swollen from your crying. If I leave you here, you'll cry again and maybe next time you won't be able to see because of the swelling in your eyes."

"I'm fine you don't have to worry about me," I answered and looked at the TV.

"How can I not worry when you look like this?" he sighed. "You know that you're not just a friend to me, Aiden. You are just more than that.”

I wonder... What would be our relationship if I ended up with him? What would happen if the one I dated was Regie and not Wyatt? Am I crying now? No. I don't want to think about that, I didn't regret dating Wyatt because it made me happy. During our time together, we were happy, weren't we?

"I understand you and thank you for the concern but I'm really okay," I smiled. "If you don't want to go home you can stay here."

“Fine! I don't want to go home! I really don't want to!” He rants like a child. "Tch. I don't want to see his fucking face,” he mumbled.

"Who?" I asked.

He turned to me, looking surprised. "Huh? Oh, nothing.”

Did he think I didn't hear what he said? Nevermind, he might be talking about Wyatt anyway.

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Regie stayed just like what he wanted but he woke up early to go home because we had school today. I also got ready when he went home.

While getting dressed, my heart suddenly started beating faster when I thought that I would see Wyatt again. But my chest aches when I thought that I would see him but I wouldn't be able to get close to him like before. I can't even talk to him or be by his side.

Upon entering the school, I just put my bag on the classroom chair and immediately went out to eat in the cafeteria. I didn't have breakfast so I just decided to eat here. It's not possible for me to go to class hungry because I won't learn anything.

After I finished buying food, I looked for a place to sit. I saw that Wyatt was alone at a table. I swallowed before walking towards him. I had not put down the tray where my food was placed when he looked at me. He was smiling but his smile faded when he saw me. Oh, this reaction is familiar to me. Is he expecting Agleen?

"May I sit here?" I asked.

"There are many empty seats, why are you still sitting here?" he asked back.

Even though I knew he didn't want me to sit there, I sat anyway. I want to talk to him and be with him. I know I seem selfish but I don't care.

"Can we talk?" I asked without looking at him. "I just want to clarify things."

"Is there anything you still don't understand about what I said?" he heaved a sigh, “Damn it. If someone sees the two of us here, what will they think?"

"I'll leave when you answer my questions," I said then I looked at him. "Is there really no hope for us to get back together?"

"Shall I say it again? I have no feelings for you anymore. I don't even know if I really felt something for you during those times," he answered.

"Did you... regret dating me?"

He scoffed, "Of course, why not? It's only because of you that other students here have changed their views of me."

I clenched my fist, trying to hold back my tears. "What if I told you that I still have feelings for you?"

"Throw that away, I don't need it if it isn't from Agleen," he replied right away.

I bowed my head and played with my fingers, "Do you..." my voice shook, "Really love her?"

"I do," he replied with emphasis. "Are we done now? Have I answered all your questions?”

I shook my head, "Lastly, don't you really have feelings for me anymore?"

"Yeah..."

"Even if I kneel in front of you, you won't come back to me?"

"Yeah."

"So, there's really no chance for the two of us to be okay?"

“...”

I raised my head and looked at him. I thought he didn't answer because there's still a chance but when I followed his gaze, I saw him looking at Agleen: who's now walking towards us.

I stood up without getting his answer. I took my food tray and went away... crying. I went there to eat but it didn't happen because I lost my appetite. I just threw the food away and left the cafeteria.

I didn't come to my first period. I stayed at the rooftop and cried there until no more tears could be shed.

When I went back to the classroom I immediately sat down on my seat. The two ladies at my back are talking loudly so I don't have a choice but to listen to them.

"Have you seen it?" Girl 1.

"See what?" Girl 2.

“Wyatt's post on Instagram,” Girl 1.

“Oh, I haven't. Why?” Girl 2.

"Do you remember the woman who just suddenly barged in here? I think she's dating Wyatt?” Girl 1.

"Huh? How did you say so? So, the rumor that he is gay is not true?" Girl 2.

"I guess so. Look,” girl 1. “Wyatt posted a picture together with that girl.”

"Oh my! So, they're really dating? My gosh!”

It seemed like he announced that he's dating a woman and not a man. So, is he proud now? Should I congratulate them?

Ha, damn it. I wish I was her.