Wyatt's Point of View

Is this the karma they were referring to?

My shoulders slumped as I stood in front of Aiden's unit door. I have been knocking repeatedly, but no one opens the door. I have been calling his name over and over, but no one is answering.

"Aiden? Please, talk to me! Open this door, please? Aiden!" I said while I kept on banging on the door with my fist.

"Hey, quiet down! The walls here are not soundproof!"

I turned to the speaker. There is a trace of annoyance on his face as well as in his voice. I just apologized for the noise I made.

"Mr., do you need something?"

I turned to the speaker. A woman noticed me. It looks like she's from the mall based on the plastic bags she's carrying.

"Uh... I... Do you happen to see the man who's living here?" I asked. At first, I was hesitant because she might not know Aiden, but in the end, I still asked because there was nothing to lose if I tried.

"Hmm..." She looked up as if thinking, "As far as I remember, no one stayed there for five days. Didn't he move?"

"Oh..." That was all I could answer because I didn't know what to say in reply to what he said. Is what Regie said true?

"I'm going first, huh? I'm going to fix the things I bought," she said while smiling.

I also smiled, "Sure. Thank you for the information."

"No problem," she replied before finally entering her unit.

Damn. I just hit my head on the door when I remembered the conversation I had with Regie earlier before I came here.

"If you're planning to go to Aiden, he's not there. You will never find him there."

"How are you so sure?" I smirked. "He has nowhere else to go but his condo."

"That's what you knew," he said, putting his hands in his pockets."You didn't know that he flew to California 5 days ago because you're busy pushing him away and drowning yourself in alcohol."

Fuck it. Did he really leave the country? Did he really leave me? Bullshit! I know he can't live without me, so how? And why? damn Is he tired of waiting? Did I push him away too hard? Did he get tired of me? Fuck.

I sat on the floor and bent my knees, placed my elbow above the knees, and covered my face with my hands. I bit my lower lip to suppress my tears, but I couldn't. They came out, and I don't know how to stop them. I think they couldn't be stopped either.

I don't know how long I cried, how long I was sitting there, or when I fell asleep. I just woke up when someone shook my shoulder, and when I raised my head, I saw Agleen.

I tapped her hand away on my shoulder and asked, "What are you doing here? And how did you get here? How did you know I was here?"

"Hey, hey, calm down," she said, holding up her hands as if giving up. She sighed, "To answer your first question, I'm here to pick you up. Second, I get here by using my car. Lastly, I asked Ryan where you are, and he told me that you might be in Aiden's unit , then I asked him for the address. Now, did I answer your questions?"

I rolled my eyes and said, "Go home." I commanded.

"What?" There was a trace of surprise in her voice because of what I said. "After coming this far, you will just send me home?"

"Who told you to come here?" I asked, looking her in the eyes. "Did I order you? I didn’t, right? You came here of your own accord."

She heaved a sigh, "What are you doing here? How long are you going to wait until Aiden opens the door for you? You can just talk to him on Monday at the school."

"No, I can't talk to him anymore," I said, shaking my head. I bowed my head and closed my eyes. Fuck. I want to cry again.

"What do you mean? He's your classmate, isn't he?" She inquired, unsure.

I took a deep breath and did not answer her question. She doesn't have to know about Aiden flying to California.

She caressed my hair when my head remained bowed. I just let her because I don't have the strength to argue anymore.

"Look at your hair, it was obvious that you ran here without taking a bath. You also reek of alcohol. Your eyes are swollen," she sighed. "Seriously, what did you guys fight for? You're even wearing just a single slipper."

I slapped her hand and stood up, saying, "Let's go home." I led the way. I didn't look back to wait for her to follow me. I just continued walking away.

She doesn't have to know everything that has happened. She will just hate him. I should end things with her, no, I shouldn't have started things with her in the first place. Damn it.

Due to my pride, I ruined everything and lost someone who was the most precious to me. If I could turn back time, I wouldn't push him away; I would stay with him and take the courage to come out to my family. If I really could, I would. I fucking regret all of my decisions. If I were as smart as Aiden, I might make the right decision. But I am not. I'm stupid, a fool, an idiot— you can call me every insulting word that you can think of. I won't deny it, and I won't be mad. Because... that's exactly who I am.

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[Monday at School]

"Wyatt!" Yuan, Jacob, and Hans ran towards me as soon as I set foot in the classroom. They hugged me tightly as if they hadn't seen me for years.

"Get off me," I ordered.

"You're so cold. Didn't you miss us?" Jacob grinned.

I rolled my eyes. I ignored what Jacob asked and said, "Step aside from my path; I want to sit down."

They followed what I said, but they also followed me to my seat. I just sighed. They seem to have no plans to stop. I will just let them.

"You were absent for 5 days straight, I thought you were dead already," Yuan said, while holding his chest. "Ah! Even Aiden was absent for five days. What happened?"

They didn't know? Or were they just pretending that they didn't?

"Yeah, our class schedule isn't a week long, but didn't you know last week was our camping? You even pay for it," said Hans.

I shook my head, "I forgot, that's why I didn't go."

Jacob clicked his tongue and said, "I heard you drown yourself in alcohol. Seriously? What's gotten into you? Did you fight with that Agleen girl?"

"What the hell?" I exclaimed. "Don't mention her name."

"Why? I was just asking," he shrugged. "Anyways, what's the reason you're drinking?"

"Have you realized that you really love Aiden so much that you drown yourself in alcohol?" Yuan asked.

I didn't realize that I loved him because I already knew it. I just denied it because I don't want to be hated. What a stupid reason, right? But even if I hadn't asked, I knew that my friends were angry because of what I did to Aiden. Well, who wouldn't be mad? I just became an asshole.

I want to go back to when Aiden and I were still okay. Shit. I missed him so much.

"Just go back to your seats," I said, and leaned my head on the table.

"I have something to tell you, let's eat lunch together," said Hans before he went back to his seat. The two followed him and sat in their seats.

What does he want to say?

In the two subjects that passed, I didn't understand anything in the lessons. All I could think about was what Hans wanted me to say. My mind was clouded with that thought until break time came.

Jacob and Yuan said that they would buy the food, while Hans and I went directly to the rooftop. I didn't talk when we first got there. I remained silent and waited for him to talk, but he was busy with his phone, so I waited for a few more minutes until I couldn't take it anymore.

I grabbed his phone in order to draw his attention to myself. He was obviously surprised by what I did. 

"Hey, I'm texting someone; why did you suddenly snatch my phone? Give it back," he said and held out his hand, waiting for me to give his phone back.

"You said that you have something to talk to me about, what is it?" I asked, ignoring what he wanted me to do.

"I will tell you once I'm done," he answered.

"Done of what?" my brows arched. He just obviously didn't want to talk. 

"Isn't it obvious? "Of course, after I finish talking with the person I was texting," he said, clearly irritated.

"Make it quick," I said, and gave his phone back. He sighed and went back to texting again.

Who is this asshole talking to, though? He doesn't even have a girlfriend or a crush. Or is that all I know? Maybe he started dating someone when I was gone. 

I just looked up at the sky while waiting for him to finish. However, I think that was just an excuse. Does he want to wait for Yuan and Jacob before he talks? Is he uncomfortable with me now? Is he mad at me? Come to think of it, he was close to Aiden back then. Needless to say, he holds a grudge against me.

"Do you hate me?" I asked, still looking at the sky. 

"Huh? Are you talking to me?" he asked.

I looked at him and asked, "Are you mad at me because of what I did to Aiden?"

He smirked, "Why do you suddenly ask?"

"I just wanted to know," I replied, returning my gaze to the sky.

"What do you want me to respond to? That I was happy with what you did to Aiden? I may be your friend, but I was not happy with what you did to him. You made him miserable. Didn't you notice? He was skinny back then, but he got skinnier since you went back to your ex-girlfriend. Aren't you even guilty? He even begged you and chased you, even though you were the one in the wrong. He still goes to school, even though his eyes are swollen. He still goes to school even though everyone hates him. He doesn't have anyone to lean on. He fought by himself. You were the only one he had, you know that too, and yet you still choose to leave him for your own good. Don't you feel any guilt?" He scoffed. 

I just listened to his rants. I don't plan to speak because I know it's all my fault, that I'm wrong, and everything he says is true. 

He asked if I felt any guilt, no, I didn't, because the only thing I felt was regret. I regret everything I have done to him. That's why, if I could go back to where we were still okay, I would treat him right—so damn right that he wouldn't think of getting away from me and regret choosing me.

"If I were him, I would regret dating you," he spoke again. "When I asked him if he regretted everything, he answered no. I asked him why. Do you know what he answered? because he was happy when you were still together. His reason was so shallow, wasn't it? He also said that all relationships lead to breaking up, so that's okay. He dated you because he loved you; he didn't regret doing so. The only thing he regretted was that he fell so deep that he didn't know how to come up anymore. He also said that he regretted depending on you, but he never said that he regretted dating you." 

After hearing that from Hans, my tears fell from my eyes, even though I didn't ask them to come out. 

Fuck. I really am an idiot. Now, how would I see Aiden again? 

"Are you crying?" he mockingly chuckled. "Don't cry, asshole; you don't have the right to cry after hurting him. Aiden deserves the universe, but you gave him an atom. Anyway, where are the two? They should be here by now."

I wiped my tears and sat up straight, "Is that all that you want to talk about?" I looked at him.

"No," he shook his head, "That's not what I want to tell you. What I really wanted to talk to you about was the photo that got leaked. I found out who's behind it."

I frowned and asked, "Who?"

"It was from..."